November 12, 2007 :

November 10, 2007 :

This was another quiet day; a day of remembrance. There were news reports, on television, about the latest casualties coming back from Iraq. It was the Day before
Veteran's Day.

In Remembrance...becoming, a theme.

November 5, 2007:

Just around Thanksgiving, in November of 2007, RIPFilms (at YouTube) was holding a Thanksgiving Joke Contest. I didn't win for my entry; however, it was fun to re-create a joke that my Mom loved to tell. This is true: She really did tell this joke many times..Her voice & expressions were priceless. She told it well..better than I.

Thank you, Mom.
Rest in Peace.

November 3, 2007:

My message, as "description," for this video was, "uhhh..let's just say, Easy Does It,"

Whatever low-point I was feeling, entered "crash" phase. While putting this one together I was re-evaluating my life. Truth told, I was NOT drinking, or using drugs, at this time. What was "killing me," was "being alone."

There's a huge difference between being alone and loneliness.
Somewhere, between these two ways of being you can find self-esteem and peace, waiting to emerge from grief.

October 31, 2007:

Karaoke! (in Marin)...my real, first-name, revealed!

October 28, 2007:

When you're having problems in life, whether they're emotional or financial, it helps to know you're not alone. Each piece of this persona I created, ("ShortbusNormal") without doubt, contains glimmers of my own "real-time" problems.

The idea that we're all on the Shortbus in life, for me, is a comforting one. Confession: I rode the Shortbus when I was child, so I know both sides of the story.

Anything, which moves people forward is a good thing.
There's more to life than just sex and violence and hated..There is love, compassion, empathy, and hopefully understanding, too.

[This is not an easy video for me to re-visit. I was at a pretty low point...and, yes, I can honestly say now, I was considering suicide.

I'm easily hurt...However, the Last Call only made me stronger in the end.

Just a beginning, friends. Just a beginning.xx,ShortbusNormal.]

October 24, 2007 :

I am a huge fan of Radiohead.
After uploading this video, I realized
just how much I'd brought to the surface..breaking free:
There, within the confines of the frame,
I saw my Depression...and, these Uncertain Times we live..merging.

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times..."
~Charles Dickens~